Without Me

The love,
The loss
Oh how I wish I was
Staring down the barrel of a 45
Maybe then I'd feel some sort of relief
From all the pain
All the day-to-day nonsense
I never know what to do
I never do anything right
Maybe it is best
For me to stare down that loaded gun
Maybe then there'd be less pain
Maybe then no one would be disappointed by me
No one would be hurt by me
They'd all know what it feels like to lose someone
But never know the feeling of losing someone close
Because none of them are close to me
You are the closest,
Yet you are so far away
You are the only reason I stay around
You are the reason they may never know the feeling
But wouldn't it just be better for me to stare down a loaded gun?
Wish this life gone
Because I know I have hurt you
And I can't stand it
How much I've hurt you is unbelievable
So why am I still here?
Maybe I should go
And let you all live better life's
You'd hardly notice the difference
Without me